March 18, 2021
I guess I truly wasn’t prepared. Totally Unaware. Embracing the impact of having to face the bigger experience. A year ago the majority of us were in lockdown with no roadmap to point the way. But what were you honestly going through not only physically but mentally? We’ve already rewritten the story. Yeah we were there! But your memory paints the moments a different way. The reason why I admit to not being prepared is because I not only went back to my daily writing but I listened to the podcast episodes where the writer was transparent about the rollercoaster ride. I was totally unaware of my truer thoughts and how I was dealing with them. So if I live this life of being present in the Now, why should any of this matter? Because we’re all students grasping onto the lessons that’ll make us greater than yesterday. By rewriting your history are you in essence changing your walk and way based on what you can handle? I needed that emotional reminder to sharpen my skills today. To physically not just see the story on paper but to hear it through spoken word. I knew in March of 2020 that there were spiritual challenges but I didn’t know how deep. Not until I got to experience the emotions a year later. I didn’t hear fear on those podcast episodes but there was a lot of wonder. Call out the truth. We aren’t out of danger in 2021. If it does get worse does rewritten history change the wave of reactions that’ll come with another lockdown? I only bring this up because decision makers in the elementary system took one look at the bad weather headed toward our city and put the students in remote learning mode. My wife is teaching in her studio in the other room just like she was doing a year ago. Trigger! If I hadn’t taken the time over the past week to go back to read and listen to the opening moments of Covid 19, I might be in a different frame of mind. I’ve entered into the day better prepared because we took the time to do it a year ago. The opposite side? I’ve heard from a lot of people who aren’t doing well today because having children at home, just like a year ago has created a trigger and they’re making a lot of angry noise. We need to be taking notes. These days of shutdown, lockdown and remote working and learning are part of our new normal. It’s time to get to know yourself so that when the command or call comes that you’re staying home again won’t be a trigger.