If only you could see the tears trickling down my cheeks, feel the happiness in my heart, the lonileness escaping from my soul, and the hope renewed in my spirit, then you would know everything that words fall short of describing at this moment. Life since 2019 hasn't been a life that all my previous years of knowledge, experience, or wisdom have helped me traverse down this new unfamiliar path. The world I once knew had, in the blink of an eye, been replaced with a world in which all those my heart held love for, were now seemingly hell bent on destroying all of the good inside I possessed. Loved one's that needed no introduction as they walked into a room for me to know who was near, suddenly became strangers to me, my soul no longer felt their presence. I truly began to believe that I was in purgatory, it was the only explanation that made sense, the only one that could possibly explain the sudden drastic changes in so many of those I loved, in how they turned cold, emotionless, unkind, abusive, tormenting, and cruel, even their appearance. Being who I am I allow others to take and take, to leave deep emotional scar's over and over, put my everything and more into making things better, and if I hadn't heard my father that had recently passed tell me its time to retreat to where they will not follow, I probably wouldn't be writing these words to you. So that's what I did, loaded my truck with everything I knew I'd need, and my cat and I went as deep within the wilderness of the Jefferson National Forest in Virginia as we could go in order to save what little of my unbroken self that remained and that's where we stayed for four years living a solitary existence. Most of my waking moments were spent deep in thought, I attempted finding answers for the many different things I was experiencing, but in the bible belt it's not wise to ask to many questions on certain topics, unless you want to be seen as crazy or a devil worshiper. So most research led me to more questions, and finding answers from those that speak but are unseen, without any knowledge experience or guidance in how to make communication easier was trying. As well as knowing which ones I should or shouldn't talk to,some were a painfully hard lesson learned. Ok I must move on to the next one you have on here. I would love to know how I can go about getting recruited by you, I need a teacher, a mentor, and I already have military training as a paratrooper, I have no fear of demons as I've faced a few already, I have experienced more in a few years than most will in a lifetime, I've had a demonologist of 35+ year's tell me I'm a super antenna for the supernatural spiritual world, and now I know I'm not alone. Peace and again Thank You 🥲
