Ramadan - everything they said it would be I feel like it was the same as hermit mode

I completely withdrew and fasted from everything and everybody. It help me canceled out alllll of the noise in the world and left me with nothing but the mess I’ve made that I call my life.

There’s been this internal battle in me for a while now and each time I find myself reminding me to not let the layers I’ve buried myself under fool me. I’m still me, I’m stil the same person that I’ve used all these embellishments to cover & hide. I’m still the same me and that’s not growth or development at all. That’s not change that wasn’t becoming the woman I dream
About it was only me putting lipstick on a pig.. & I hate it here. I hate feeling so buried and suffocated by me.